『 Trueth ..』

I saw a sentence which I like it very much and we talk about it hole morning .
Nothing is too amazing to be true !
I like it cause I know that anything must be accept at the end whatever how bad it is .
I like it cause I want to be a true person not fake .
I'm neurotically very, very sensitive to wanting to be as much a real person as possible ,even I know that is so hard ! but I know some time we r fake . I am only a little bit better but still fake !
I am so poor now ! that is come from my lyzy. To work half-heartedly without a definite plan or direction;to work perfunctorily and muddle along -- "So long as one remains a monk, one goes on tolling the bell."
No one can help me anymore since you push yourself to the last ditch !
No one can put you through if you don't work hard yourself!
I am now under the necessity of doing something ! or Dead